Coming Out

ON COMING OUT (AS A BLOGGER)

It’s been just over a year since my very first blog post. When I first made the decision to start a blog, I was a bit (ok, a lot) shy about it. Everything associated with my blog – the name, the associated Twitter and Instagram accounts, and even the email account, were all under my alias “Bits of Bee”. With the exception of a few friends, no one knew that I was actively blogging, not even my parents.

It wasn’t until I was recognized as a Top 30 Vancouver Mom Blogger by Vancouver Mom that I allowed for my two worlds to merge. I had to give my name and a short blurb on who I was for the nominees page, and I knew this would be the turning point – that this would “out” me. I tried to be discreet about it. I hesitantly mentioned my nomination on Facebook, and tweeted only once or twice during the voting period, and I think my friends and family were a little confused – what’s a blog, and what does it have to do with Bianca?

Once my name was out, I decided to embrace it. I updated my “About Me” page with a little more personal information. I started to send links to my blog posts through my personal Facebook page. People started to ask me about it, and comment about my blog to me in person.

Then, and even now, I find it awkward to discuss my blog in person with coworkers, friends and family. I feel like my blog world is a completely separate world, where I don’t have to worry about talking out of turn, or minding what I say, or being judged for the words that come out of my mouth. I can write freely, and if people don’t want to read what I have to say, they don’t have to. I can nurture my love for writing without being judged, and I can do it on my own schedule, with my own parameters.

But I’ve also grown to love the engagement as well. Nothing thrills me more than to see that I’ve had new readers stumble upon my little blog. And I love discovering other blog moms with the same love for writing and photography and family as myself. This little blog community is welcoming, rewarding, and completely worth joining, and I am so thankful for all of the connections I’ve made in the process.

Here I am, Bianca, the person behind Bits of Bee
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BLOG REBIRTH

Now that I’m out, I’ve decided to make a few changes. I want to focus more on what people would be interested in reading about. I want to share ADVICE. QUOTES. ANECDOTES. I want to continue to weave in personal stories about my life as an adoptee, and to share photos and ideas of my journey through this wild and precious life I lead. I hope that you’ll stick with me, and share your thoughts and ideas as well.

Thank you to those of you who have followed me over the past year (and then some). And welcome to those of you who are reading my blog for the very first time.

For fun, I’ll leave you with some of my most popular posts:

On embracing your Mama’s Bits

My comparison of Big Macs & Babies
Life from my dog’s perspective  “Do These Spots Make My Ass Look Fat?”

Some thoughts on Why I Would Make A Kick Ass Cop

My experience with Discussing Adoption With My Five Year Old

And my question to you all: WTF Is A Wiggle?

Bit of a Blogaholic

Well it’s been 10 days (and 6 posts) since I popped my blogging cherry, and I hate to admit it but..

My name is Bits of Bee, and I’m a blogaholic. In honour of my newfound addiction, here are some things I’ve learned (so far) about blogging:

Blogging is crack. Here I thought it would be an outlet for me to express myself and apply my love for writing –if and when I had the time. But it has already become so much more than that. I find myself dreaming in blog topics, and checking my Blogger stats every chance I get. Beads of sweat appear on my forehead as I pass the laptop while chasing my little ones around the living room, calculating the time it would take to quickly check in and read new comments on my post before returning to my game of Polly Pockets with my princess. On work days, I can’t help but keep the Blogger page open in a hidden window for quick peeks in between work tasks. They say the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem. Consider this an admission.

Klout is a way to measure your online influence, not a form of Ghonoreah.I keep seeing Klout ratings referenced on blogs and blogger tweets, and I eventually had to Google it (yes, that just happened). Still learning, but I now know that Klout is cool and not a directory of people who have contracted an infectious disease.

I’m an attention whore. I tried to convince myself that I wanted to blog for myself, that I didn’t care if anyone read what I wrote. Who am I kidding? I get giddy when I see that I’ve had more viewers on a recent blog post. New followers? Hells yes! Number of visitors just went over 200? Awesome!

Blogging is a confidence roller coaster. I post, I love what I’ve posted and can’t wait to read the comments. Then I feel like deleting my post. I regret what I’ve written. I criticize my writing/choice of topic, and analyze how others will react. Then I want to re-read it 100 times pretending it’s my first time. Then I want to share with anyone and everyone to see if they like it as much as I do. Then I want to take back the post/invitation and delete the blog altogether. I’m not crazy, I swear!

Despite these realizations, I’m loving it and don’t plan on stopping anytime soon. Any tips, comments or feedback on the ins and outs of blogging would be greatly appreciated. I need some enablers to keep my habit going!